Return To Beijing

I have a Beijing trip coming up next week, but not really lookng forward to it. My 亲爱的 has returned to Chengdu, so I will be bored as fuck. Beijing is going to be cold without my 亲爱的。Our favourite hangouts like Yes Bar, 东直门,南锣鼓巷 are not going to mean anything to me without her presence. Luckily I don't have too many meetings there, so I'm thinking of going to Chengdu to see her during midweek. My 亲爱的 is staying with her mum. I wonder what she's going to tell her mum that she has to leave home for a few days?

天意

A few nights ago, I couldn't sleep after 亲爱的's friend post a message in her blog that 亲爱的 is a two-timing woman. Guess who is the friend? It is Sue! If you refer to my earlier postings, I wrote the story of Sue. Sue's Singapore boyfriend had read my blog and confronted her about her dishonesty. I don't know how on earth he has discovered my blog, but this is probably 天意. I think they have broken up as he felt that Sue has cheated on him. Sue has put the blame on me and my 亲爱的, so to take revenge, she has created a fictitious story of 亲爱的. I felt bad for Sue as it wasn't my intention to break up any relationship. This is probably God's will.

As for 亲爱的，she cried like a baby after reading Sue's blog. She felt very hurt that Sue had said bad things about her. Took her 2 days to calm down. Now that she has lost a good friend, she wanted me to stop blogging about her friends and relatives. Looks like I will have to go elsewhere to source for other young dragon girl stories for my blog.

亲爱的 Blog One Year Anniversary

My blog is one year old!!! I wonder how many people are following my blog when I rarely receive any comments. It was an eventful year for me. Due to the economic situation, I'm not doing well in my sales career. I am glad to have 亲爱的 to stand by me for the past one year. For the coming year, I hope I can get a job that can be based in China, so that I can spend more time with her. After all, we agreed to be together for the next twenty years.

A Cold Long Night

My relationship with 亲爱的 is like a fairy tale. It is so perfect that sometimes I couldn't believe it myself. She is so innocent, so gullible, and I choose to become her white knight, her guardian angel. Our time spent together is always full of fun and laughter. Tonight, I realized that she could be more sophisicated than I thought. She could be hiding something from me. I don't know whether to believe it or not, but my heart sank after one of her friends reveal it to me. It's already 3am and my eyes are still wide open. I don't know if I should confront her, or should I just let the matter rest. I'm going to call her tomorrow...what should I say?

那么爱你为什么

I don't know why this has happened to me, but I feel that I am really in love with my 亲爱的。I just can't stop thinking of her. We are going to meet in Xiamen on Friday, and I am very very excited about it. Am I addicted to her? What if she can be permanently by my side? Will I still have that kind of feelings?

八月十五的月亮

While it has been a month that I have last met my 亲爱的 in Xiamen, we speak over the phone everyday without fail. I have no idea why we don't get tired of talking to each other. However, just like any other loving couples, we do have quarrels occasionally. Just last week we got into a big fight, and 亲爱的 sent me this email:

今夜失眠了，思想徘徊在这一年里我们经历的点点滴滴，我开始茫然了。
曾经你说你会疼我一辈子，曾经你说你会好好照顾我，曾经你让我相信你.这辈子出了老大只爱我一个女人。听了你的这些话，让我对我们的未来有了美好的幢景。那些曾经你的誓言都还没有实现，你却、、、、、、、、、、想放弃，但脑子浮现出以前我们一起经历的点点滴滴，让我感动。想珍惜，但是今天的事情刺痛了我的心，让我伤心难过。放弃还是珍惜？我茫然了，现在的我就像瓶子里的蚂蚁，找不到呼吸的缺口。好压抑---
我是个失败的人，把握不住自己最在乎的人。那就只能选择放弃了，把握不住但是最起码真爱过，不后悔。该珍惜的我永远也不会放弃，该放弃的我会在迷茫中忘记，爱过了、伤过了、也怕了、不敢再爱了。也许这是上天的安排，剩下的心痛只能用时间来慢慢抚平，没有了我的世界希望你可以过的更‘精彩’。也谢谢你这些日子带给我的快乐。心碎了、真的累了、累了、、、、、、、、、、、、、、、、、

For the 1st 2 days, I felt pain in my heart. I'm sure she felt the same way too. Instead of calling her, I sent her SMS. At lesat she did not ignore my messages but replied to everyone, which means I still got chance to win her back. On the 3rd day, she mellowed out and listened to my reasons. Finally, I received this SMS from her:

老公经过这次的事情以后,发现更爱你了.看到你发给我的短信,原来这段时间我是如此霸道的,也不知道怎么回事.可能是小燕带动我情绪吧!想到你每天忙碌的工作,还要时刻掂记我.而我还因为一点事就凶你,真是不可理喻.以后不会这样了。我要和你开开心心过你下一个20年.老公对不起对不起......